I need to smile at my husband more. Just smile at him and ask him how he is doing more often. I take him for granted so much. And I need to touch him more often, not be afraid to just touch him and hug him. I am not as affectinate with Brian as I would like to be because he often tries to turn a hug into sex. A simple kiss into a tongue kiss, which then turns into more. Then when I say No he’s all disappointed, and I can tell he’s thinking Well why did you even start anything. Except I didn’t! I just gave him a hug or a little kiss. Sigh. I need to be more clear with my boundaries from jump, and he needs to respect that a hug is often just a hug. Not an invitation. I will talk to him about this tonight.